Thursday, June 24, 2010
i love my holidays so far so good XD
the only thing bad was that i didn't get to meet up with andrew yet.
wanted to meet him yesterday but i think he thought i ditched him, so he went home.
hope i can go exploring auckland with him, haven't seen him for ages!
i'm waiting for lucy to come back from aussie, think we should catch up with each other without others' disturbance. it might sound pretty intense.
i crashed my aed634 :(
so i can't drive out everyday, which is really very inconvenient.
luckily people are nice to come and pick me up.
but i really don't like asking people to pick me up, i feel bad.
tomorrow clubbing night again! yay looking forward to it, because i haven't had any wild weekends for ages ages ages, its finally holidays, finally able to be wild and have fun with everyone. that's why i love holidays.
then i can come up with random stuff to do, random places to go.
yesterday went to eastern beach with heihei to have a lil chat about everything and we were listning to joey yung and playing with the headlights. then when we wanted to leave, her car's batt died. and we need to ask anna to come and rescue us. it was pretty intense moment, like i never thought that anna could come and save my life one fine day.
last night was pretty cool as well, drank with shelly & co. which is actually pretty good because i realised that all of us thought that we hated each other, but we actually all don't hate each other. so we kinda had some fun as time with black and italiano =]
i wanna have more dates with you
the only thing bad was that i didn't get to meet up with andrew yet.
wanted to meet him yesterday but i think he thought i ditched him, so he went home.
hope i can go exploring auckland with him, haven't seen him for ages!
i'm waiting for lucy to come back from aussie, think we should catch up with each other without others' disturbance. it might sound pretty intense.
i crashed my aed634 :(
so i can't drive out everyday, which is really very inconvenient.
luckily people are nice to come and pick me up.
but i really don't like asking people to pick me up, i feel bad.
tomorrow clubbing night again! yay looking forward to it, because i haven't had any wild weekends for ages ages ages, its finally holidays, finally able to be wild and have fun with everyone. that's why i love holidays.
then i can come up with random stuff to do, random places to go.
yesterday went to eastern beach with heihei to have a lil chat about everything and we were listning to joey yung and playing with the headlights. then when we wanted to leave, her car's batt died. and we need to ask anna to come and rescue us. it was pretty intense moment, like i never thought that anna could come and save my life one fine day.
last night was pretty cool as well, drank with shelly & co. which is actually pretty good because i realised that all of us thought that we hated each other, but we actually all don't hate each other. so we kinda had some fun as time with black and italiano =]
i wanna have more dates with you
what we could have been, 2:53 PM.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
sigh stats108 on friday, last exam and i'll be free!!
i cant wait for exams to be overr so i can go out and be naughty every night!
yay!!! counting down.. 1 day and a half day
so stressful! 50MCQ questions can be mentally tiring!
management was alright, i just wrote everything i learnt online in 3 days.
i realised that people tend to talk stuff that doesnt make sense when they are almost falling asleeep or when they haven't fully wake up. then i always laugh at them, hahahaha so evil!
starstar drew some funny as shit on my hello kitty schedule today.
i've been eating so much lately, omg getting a fat ass soon, need to diet and catch up with sleep after holidays :)
i cant wait for exams to be overr so i can go out and be naughty every night!
yay!!! counting down.. 1 day and a half day
so stressful! 50MCQ questions can be mentally tiring!
management was alright, i just wrote everything i learnt online in 3 days.
i realised that people tend to talk stuff that doesnt make sense when they are almost falling asleeep or when they haven't fully wake up. then i always laugh at them, hahahaha so evil!
starstar drew some funny as shit on my hello kitty schedule today.
i've been eating so much lately, omg getting a fat ass soon, need to diet and catch up with sleep after holidays :)
what we could have been, 8:47 PM.
Friday, June 11, 2010
i'm so messed up in my thoughts
"hey baby show me show me your love, i will promise to show you show you all my love"- elanne kwong-[show you].
i don't dare to say that, because i know i'm once again failing to love a person wholeheartedly. i want to show all my love, but i can't because i have learnt to protect myself from getting hurt, but while i protect myself, i hurt the other half.
is it really that hard to be at love's equilibrium? i actually think so.
but i want to, really want to be the 'me' without protection, but seems like i've got this permeable membrane covering me, what you see is only half of the real me. the real me, kinda disappeared in the world i revolve in.
sometimes i don't know what the shit am i doing.
i seem to be still living in my memories of people that used to love me and looking over those that are currently loving me. people do like living in their memories aye?
all the good times bad times just pops up when you see something randomly and naturally associate that thing with that historic person.
just like today, i saw mr. tuffery at the cocklebay dairy, the first person i thought of texting was a historic person. but i didn't text in the end, because it seems stupid trying to bring back those memories when we are covering them up with dust now. so the only thing i can do is to smile while thinking of those happy memories and let it go the next moment, coming back to reality. continuing with the current life. but that excitement when i saw mr. tuff kinda hits back to me.
i begin to doubt myself sometimes.
should not feel doubts towards the love that you have right now but treasure it, not to take it for granted, but human's nature is always taking things for granted. and when u lose it, u just go like fuck this shit. why not before saying fuck this shit, love all you can before it's all too late?
maybe you were right, we may belong to different worlds.
but i don't think that will stop me from
spending all my time lovin' you
All my time lovin' you
every minutes runnin' away
from when i wake up
to when i lay down
all i got is you baby on my brain
spending all my time lovin' you
all my time lovin' you
25 hours in my day
in believing that love combines two different worlds together and u get happiness from it, hoping that you won't let go before i do.
i do like everything that u did for me, it was everything that i was thinking of before i met you.but i didn't feel as crazy as i thought i would in my imagination, maybe because of my permeable membrane.
"hey baby show me show me your love, i will promise to show you show you all my love"- elanne kwong-[show you].
i don't dare to say that, because i know i'm once again failing to love a person wholeheartedly. i want to show all my love, but i can't because i have learnt to protect myself from getting hurt, but while i protect myself, i hurt the other half.
is it really that hard to be at love's equilibrium? i actually think so.
but i want to, really want to be the 'me' without protection, but seems like i've got this permeable membrane covering me, what you see is only half of the real me. the real me, kinda disappeared in the world i revolve in.
sometimes i don't know what the shit am i doing.
i seem to be still living in my memories of people that used to love me and looking over those that are currently loving me. people do like living in their memories aye?
all the good times bad times just pops up when you see something randomly and naturally associate that thing with that historic person.
just like today, i saw mr. tuffery at the cocklebay dairy, the first person i thought of texting was a historic person. but i didn't text in the end, because it seems stupid trying to bring back those memories when we are covering them up with dust now. so the only thing i can do is to smile while thinking of those happy memories and let it go the next moment, coming back to reality. continuing with the current life. but that excitement when i saw mr. tuff kinda hits back to me.
i begin to doubt myself sometimes.
should not feel doubts towards the love that you have right now but treasure it, not to take it for granted, but human's nature is always taking things for granted. and when u lose it, u just go like fuck this shit. why not before saying fuck this shit, love all you can before it's all too late?
maybe you were right, we may belong to different worlds.
but i don't think that will stop me from
spending all my time lovin' you
All my time lovin' you
every minutes runnin' away
from when i wake up
to when i lay down
all i got is you baby on my brain
spending all my time lovin' you
all my time lovin' you
25 hours in my day
in believing that love combines two different worlds together and u get happiness from it, hoping that you won't let go before i do.
i do like everything that u did for me, it was everything that i was thinking of before i met you.but i didn't feel as crazy as i thought i would in my imagination, maybe because of my permeable membrane.
what we could have been, 9:44 PM.
Monday, June 07, 2010
i really hate hate hate hate hate people assuming stuff.
it pisses me off so badly.
it pisses me off so badly.
what we could have been, 4:59 PM.
starstar is sleeping next to me now
hope he don't wake up till i finish this if not, GG FML!
hahahaha
it's his bday today, and he have to tank study, so poor thing
that he don't even have enough sleep...
hahaha i feel so bad, i didn't bake him a cake.
cos i used to bake cakes for people i think whom are special to me on their birthdays.
hmms.. pretty guilty but can't help it, too busy to bake bday cakes.
he asked me if i got a blog, but i said no.
i don't know why... i just don't want him to know some of the things that happened in the past.
sometimes i really don't know how much he loves me, cos the things he do and say are not always the same. but to a certain degree, dol yau geh, like he will buy me random stuff and feed me food and ho garn darn d actions dol hor yee make me feel happy. darn hai ngo ng jee li gor love hor yee last gei loi lor. ho scared it will just suddenly disappear.. that's why i'm not putting in my 100%, hurt gor jau won't go for 100% again le ma? ng jee ar, hei mong si garn hor yee heal my problem la.
that's all for now! back to studying economics101 hahaha
hope he don't wake up till i finish this if not, GG FML!
hahahaha
it's his bday today, and he have to tank study, so poor thing
that he don't even have enough sleep...
hahaha i feel so bad, i didn't bake him a cake.
cos i used to bake cakes for people i think whom are special to me on their birthdays.
hmms.. pretty guilty but can't help it, too busy to bake bday cakes.
he asked me if i got a blog, but i said no.
i don't know why... i just don't want him to know some of the things that happened in the past.
sometimes i really don't know how much he loves me, cos the things he do and say are not always the same. but to a certain degree, dol yau geh, like he will buy me random stuff and feed me food and ho garn darn d actions dol hor yee make me feel happy. darn hai ngo ng jee li gor love hor yee last gei loi lor. ho scared it will just suddenly disappear.. that's why i'm not putting in my 100%, hurt gor jau won't go for 100% again le ma? ng jee ar, hei mong si garn hor yee heal my problem la.
that's all for now! back to studying economics101 hahaha
what we could have been, 9:17 AM.
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
i want a new car T_T
and i wanna get my full license asap.
been studying so hard like a geek, the only way to ace uni within this short period of time.
i can only have music and tv breaks.
and yes, i need EYE CREAMS, my panda eyes are getting so serious so serious.
i think.. when someone change, the liking for songs change as well.
i'm starting to like songs with bass but not those hardcore gangster ones.
and start thinking that canto songs are getting a bit sleepy.
of course there are some really good slow songs.
but so hard to find for new songs. i'm so sick of my CDs because i drive everyday, spent alot of time in the car, basically i listen to all my songs there, i just use the comp to download songs to itunes then burn cd. hahaha
i need good songs that i don't have!! tell me if there is any good songs ok?
there is no new and old songs, there is only good and bad songs.
and some songs really can't be listened repeatedly, u get super super sick of them.
everytime when it's about half a year, i start to think of things to buy.. things i need.
start writing a long long shopping list already. when i should be getting my brains down for study.
OOHOOHOOH!!
THE MYSTERIES of LOVE BY TAVIA YUENG/RAY LAM/ KENNETH MA/ BERNICE
fuking good drama to watch. i love the SEXY COMBINATION of the people XD its HOTTIES
tvb dramas getting good again! well it started off from janet bin, but not everyone likes janet bin, me and shelly were like talking about it everyday though thats why we can click, tvb clicks us together =]
i really like the feeling of someone falling asleep over the phone, hearing someone breathing so soundly.
it's like that person has that mutual trust in you, that sorta connection that only u and the other party can feel. its so personal and it can make you smile while sleeping.
and waking up still being able to hear the snore or the voice.. it just starts off the day in harm fook.
what we could have been, 2:42 PM.
